Good morning, John. I had pretty much the worst anxiety dream of all time last night. It's pretty horrible - I don't really know if I want to share it with you, but I guess I'm going to because that's what I want this video to be about, is anxiety. So yeah, this is bad, prepare yourself: I dreamt that I was a pilot of a commercial jet and I crashed it - me, I did it, it was my fault - and then I had to go to all the funerals of the people who died and talk to their families and look at their coffins. Give me "showing up to class in my underpants" any day; I will take "didn't go to class all semester long and now I have to take the final," sure. I actually still have those. If you're in school and you're like, "Oh, I can't wait to get out of school so I can stop having these school-based anxiety dreams," that never happens. You will always dream that you didn't go to class all semester long and now you have to go, uh, take the final. That will always happen to you. Forever. Until you die. Our brains are stupid. Turns out, according to a landmark study that was completed in 1985, anxiety is the most common emotion felt in dreams. Which makes me wonder whether or not anxiety is, in fact, the most common emotion felt total. I'm feeling like, right now, anxiety is my most common emotion. There's a lot going on for me right now. I'm about to finish my album, Ellen Hardcastle. I'm very excited... but also scared. I've been working on it for a long time and I'm really emotionally invested in it. There's a lot of my, like, time and passion and energy have gone into it, and I know that people aren't going to hate it, 'cause it's good, like, I know people are going to like it, but that's what I know. What I feel is that everyone is going to hate it, and they're all going to leave me comments saying "Why did you release this piece of crap out into the world? You are such a bad person!" Also, I'm making a video with NASA, which is just like, "What?!" All the moments of my life where I'm not thinking, "Oh my gosh, this is so cool," I'm thinking, "Oh my god, don't screw up." I'm officiating a wedding this weekend for a couple of my best friends, so yeah. My rational side is like, "Oh my god, what an honor, you guys really like me that much?" But my irrational side, all it heard was, "Hey Hank, do you want to, uh, not screw up the most important moment of our lives?" And I'm playing a show with Harry and the Potters tomorrow night. Playing shows is always scary, more scary when you're playing it with the coolest people ever. If you live in Missoula, you should come to that. There's a link. And then of course you have the most stressful thing in my life, which is VidCon. There's ten thousand things at VidCon, let's just assume, around ten thousand. Failure rate of one percent: super good. But when you've got ten thousand things, it means that some things are gonna break and go wrong and fail. And when I'm me and I'm looking, all I see is the little fail-y things, and I think that's all that everybody's gonna see. But of course what everybody sees is the 9,900 things that went really right. And yeah, I know most of you are like, "Shut up about VidCon! I can't go, and it's already sold out." But, uhhh, next year, 2012, we are going to have a much bigger venue. So all this made me realize that doing stuff is really hard, especially when you're doing it for other people and you care what they think about you. Which is why I think that there are so many sociopaths and psychopaths in positions of power: because those people don't care about other people. So when they do these big, important things, they're not freaking stressed out as hell, like ripping their frickin' faces off 'cause they're so scared. Because they don't care, because they're psychopaths! And then we're shocked when they send pictures of their penis to random interns. No! We set the system up for this. It's way too scary to be in a position of power, unless you're a psychopath. So that worries me. Like if you want to do big, cool, interesting things, either you have to be a psychopath, or you have to be really stressed out. And I don't want to be either of those things, but I also don't want to stop doing cool stuff. Sorry if I'm opening the window of my soul here, but now I'm going to tell you why it's different for me and how rare this is, that the people I'm doing stuff for, they care about me and they're understanding. And wow - that's a very unique and awesome gift and I thank you all for it. And I also thank John for it, for making me stronger without freakin' stressing me out, which he never does. Speaking of which - he's not feeling well, so everyone send warm wishes to John. Uh, he's got some stomach problems, which is why he has not eaten his sandwiches yet. So John, feel better, and I will see you on Wednesday.